That day is killing me

Now I see that I'm gonna have a really tough week. We had a Slovene test tonight, we didn't got our Science tests back and ever worse, tomorrow we have P.E. testing. Which is OK, but we'll get grades out of jumping skipping rope. That's right. Jumping skipping rope. A grade. Has anyone ever heard anything sillier? And I can't even practice because we haven't got any long skipping rope at home (well, at least not long enough). I can tell it will be the hell of a day tonight. I can't wait to do all the things I need to do so I can go running again. Running is so relaxing, especially after all those pancakes I had for lunch... Oh my, I really don't feel relaxed or something today.. I actually nearly fall asleep during Science. The problem is that we were just making some experiments and I was doing it for grade. So falling asleep wasn't very good idea. I normally sleep during Geography, but tonight Jayni was asked so I had to stay awake to help her. And you know what? She got an A! So now her parents will let her go to the trip whit quire (they told her that she must improve her grades, or they won't let her go). But as it was so I again couldn't ask her about the Thing. Oh, I just wish I would never told her... This is already mean. I don't even know if she is really my friend. Howsoever, I think I'll go now, as I really don't feel like writing anymore. I think I will work out for a while. I really improves my mood.

Just a quick vegetarian post

So, right after I wrote the last post I went downstairs to eat something. And as my Dad just brought some strawberries home I ate them (not all of them, of course, but quite a lot, with no sugar or anything, I ate them just like that) and I remembered that I ate this salami sandwich that we got for a snack at school.And something just snapped within me and at moment it was just like there was two Saras: a mean vegeterian Sara and a hungry normal-mortal Sara. And as it was like that they started fighting. So I'll just write their dialogue.
SaraNo2.: That salami is anyway so plastic that there wasn't much of a living being in there. (which is damn true)
SaraNo1.: But yet, there was some. (and, look at this, also this is true)
No2.: But I was hungry.
No1.: You could only eat bread from sandwich.
No2.: But everyone else from my class ate that salami too.
No1.: Which doesn't mean that you should too.
No2: We had a test in history today, I needed all the mind-power I could get.
No1.: Salami anyway makes you fat.

And so the vegeterian Sara No1 won the fight. And tonight I will dream piglets that are trying to make a sandwich out of me again!! What can I say, sweet dreams. Besides that,

Pujški šo šekši

, as it sais in the last desk in English clasroom (I'm afraid that only a Slovene person will be able to understand that sentence, and even for Slovenian people I'm not sure they'll be able too). I'll go now.

Such a hard day

I'm feeling so damn TIRED tonight... I wish it would not be so but it is. Damn it, it's killing me, everything is so damn wrong today. It's just one of those days when you wish you wouldn't be born. We had a history test, I didn't talk to Jayni about the thing.. Like, I'm almost sure she told THE THING about me to Manny and now... Yeah, now... Everybody know it. Even Manny F. does and if Manny F. does than you can be sure that everybody know it. Because nobody would tell her something only he knows. Now it is like public secret, and I don't like it one lil bit. Because I stopped it, because it was just one month and because only Jayni and Jane know it and Jane lives on the other side of the country so I'm sure that Jayni told it. Or maybe Eve knows it. Eve knows like everything about me. And she's not even one of my closer friends. Even Tina doesn't know so much about me and, Jesus, Tina is my sister. Now my neck hurts a lot. I guess I'm gonna drink something really fresh and then I'm gonna just sleep. I'm not completley sure if I'll go running tonight. I probably should go but I feel so f*ckin tired!!

Why is the world so f*ckin unfair?

So, here I go again.. I must admit that yesterday I was really angry about this, but now I feel kinda calmed down, even if I know I shouldn't be. It's just the fact that I and Ela just ate an ice-cream. While some people in the world haven't got water. I'm on computer right now, while some people have no roof above their heads. I'll go running to keep myself fit and slim, while some people are starving, because they have no food or because the rotten socaity told them that they are too fat. There are people who are too fat because they are eating unhealthy food at MacDonalds, Burger King etc., and there are people who have no food at all and just haven't got basic things to live. There are people who live on the street because they made a big mistake in their life and there are people who are honored like gods (movie stars, singers..) and they are often worse than homeless. Because for homeless, we say that it's their own fault. Is it really? Well, I don't think it is. I think that they made a huge mistakes, that are too big for them and now, they can't change it. You think that soe of them don't suffer, that they don't wish that they would never try drugs or alchocol, don't you think that they wish they would never sleal that bike or that they would never broke that window? And now about famous people. They are rich like pigs and I'm quite sure that they must feel kinda guilty for them to have everything and for some to have nothing. And what do they do? Do they move in a normal-sized flat and give a lot of their money too poor? Oh no, no, they can't, they are STARS. So what do they do. They adopt a kid or two, they give some money every year to charity and this is it. Have they ever thought about MILLIONS of other hungry, parentless kids they didn't adopt? And about the hundreds of homeless who didn't get a warm meal? A, how 'bout this? Once a year people give few cents to the charity and they feel good and generous... But as long as some people could have private yahts while some people won't be able to get themselves a glass of clean water nobody in the world hasn't got rights to say that that world is fair or good. And this is all I will say. If you read this than I beg you on my knees, think about it, please. And if you ask, what an ordinary man can do I'll tell you something mother Theresa used to say:

A ordinary man can do a lot. He can smile.

But if I may say something too, sometimes smile is not enough. sometimes you need to give a hand, a word,.. And one more thing: global warming. I haven't got time right now, so I'll write about this tomorrow, bus really, if this post touched you on any way than please, do something. Least you can do is smile.

Huh.. Just few thoughts

Well, in Friday I was at funeral of one of my relatives, who I never saw in my life. And it was horrible. All those people were really sad, but they were too POLITE to cry. All those smoke and marble crosses... It was simply terrible. Why do they want to go through this. Like when I die, I'd like to be buried on one of those sweet places where is just grass and few crosses, nothing else. Or maybe burned and be thrown into the river... Just to be free... Is there anything better? I mean, in grave dead people are like trapped, aren't they? But if my body could float with the wind or a river for eternity, that would be so nice... Free as the wind...

C'mon World

Well, my very first blog day.. Huh.. Guess it IS kinda weird to write about yourself on Internet..

Already the language by itself defeats us from a terrify of things without a name

Or something like that. I read this in Ink heart and it's my favorite quote.. Just love it. Toni Morrison or someone said that.. If I would just heard the name I would be sure it is a male person. But now I know that she is female. Well tonight I was doing quite well with weight losing. In the morning I actually didn't ate anything. Well I did all the exercises and went to the drama club. It was SO cool. We were learning a dances for the cancan. I know I have a really small part in the play but it will get better next year (I hope). This year I'm just to fat. But I will get better. I know I will. I just can't become like my sister. I'm gonna write more for some other day. Now I have to go. Bye people!